Bad Day : (

It has just been a bad day all around for me.

Things at work are definitely not fantastic. I am applying again at a business for a position that I would truly find rewarding...now if they would just give me a chance.

Erik has had to listen to me complain so much lately and I really do feel like crying, which I am totally opposed to. I have been trying to find where I went wrong at my job, as everything seemed to be working out okay...I guess 'seemed to be' is the key here.

Our friend, Mary, we just found out has had cancer for over a year. The minute I heard about it, Erik and I plucked a couple of garden flowers and hauled up to the care center. I was not going to miss an opportunity to say hello and check in. She looked good all in all, although I feel sad for her. She was the most fantastic land lady and the kiddieos love her...they would go visit and she would give them cookies and let them drag the toys out to play with. There aren't many people in life that make you remember the "small" stuff.

On top of all of this, all of my baby fishies are gone and my tank is a complete mess. I find the "mommy" fish hiding constantly and she has not come out of the cave for about three days. I am going to again clean the tank and hope that they all overcome this. Although I saw the tank getting mucky, I did not want to purchase another "suckerfish" as I knew it would suck up the babies, yet the dirtiness has taken over.

We are thinking about camping this weekend. That would be fantastic. We have only camped once this year (for Mothers Day), I feel deprived! I love camping in the fall, it is so beautiful, and cool. I would camp every weekend if I could, even though we camp close, it still seems like a getaway. Plus, brats are always on our menu, and that alone makes me smile : )

I guess there have been a couple of happy moments today. Camping reservations and I got carded today. It happens once in awhile, but she said I just looked too young for her to assume anything. That made my day. 31 still looking 21....I can handle that!

My friend comes back from her honeymoon tomorrow and I cannot wait to hear all about it. I will be slightly jealous, but I wouldn't miss sharing her experience. Her wedding was beautiful, so I hope to see some pictures as well.

I guess tata for now. I am leaving with a smile on my face and hope in my heart.

-j